:: love hope faith ::

bday month

2008-12-09T17:59:00.001+08:00

stones??

2008-09-23T20:10:00.000+08:00

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Never take someone for granted..Hold every person close to your heart..Because you might wake up one day..And realize that you've lost a diamond..While you were too busy collecting stones...

p/s: damn stones!!

Know Your Place

2008-09-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

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cina..tlg jangan kurang ajar! sape kau nak suruh perlahankan bunyi azan..matilah kau kene panah petir!!

bulan ramadhan..dugaan dah tibaaaaaaaaa

2008-09-08T10:12:00.002+08:00

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did i make d ryt decision? haha hayoo..pak consultant!! :p

Salam Ramadhan!

2008-09-04T13:02:00.001+08:00

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More RAMADHAN graphics

jgn ponteng tau!! (kalau nak ponteng ajak aku :p )

Happy Burfday Malaysia!!

2008-09-01T20:18:00.005+08:00

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SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA MALAYSIA!!!

p/s: do u see me? ;)

Wish Lust List ;)

2008-09-01T02:17:00.004+08:00

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entry ni solely utk aku vranganz ok nyah!

Victoria Secret

cole haan
Lancel EasyFlirt

Madden Girl by Steve Madden

Coach

26 August 2008

2008-08-29T22:25:00.006+08:00

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cute je ibu-2-b

papa -2-b? sentiase la dgn kehampesan die.. :p

neves2!!chak!! hello world!! i'm hani maisarah bte johan iskandar!!!!

kite dah siap..comel x kite?
ngantuk2..

proud ibu
proud papa
happy family..amin..
uncle max: anak ini..abah yang punyeee :p

xnak mandi!!!! TAAAAAKNAAAAAAK!!!!

kite kene mild jaundice...keshian kite..

kite dah wangii daaaaa

to my two best friends Sherry & Joe..congratulations.. i noe u guys will be great parents..how i noe dat? coz u guys are GREAT friends..d greatest anybody can ever wish for..tqs for being the best, gegirl is blessed having u guys as parents.. and i hope gegirl will have great friends like us.. :) sayang korg!! congrats again!..XOXO smoochsmooch

When I give u d silent treatment

2008-08-22T13:15:00.004+08:00

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bile aku x ckp ngan kau..maknenye aku betul2 xnak ckp ngan kau..bile aku dah xplain sekali ape salah kau...jgn tanye aku banyak2 kali lagi..sbb bile aku dah sound ko direct mcm semalam..aku x amek port dah perasaan kau macam mane lepas tu..haish!!!!! get lost laaaaaa...

negative out, positive in...u can't be happy for me kan?..so..negative OUT!! lu pikirrrr la sendiri!!!

Redang Trip!! ;)

2008-08-12T19:37:00.008+08:00

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This Entry Is Dedicated to Abg Bani :) Enjoy!!

The Best!!

Boss payung besar

melepak di roof top

family luv? urgh! hehe

Titenok

the baby of d bunch

the game which we won!!

the only dugong we found so we turned him into a duyong

view from dapor

smuggle immigrants

d cutest dude nak lompat!!

me, ayna n nizam b4 snorkeling

with our boat

redang ink

afiq, me n ayna

u jump i watch

candat sotong b4 disaster

the winners!!

losers!!!

lope mmg keje makan je!!

byebye sobsobsob

p/s: cukup x abg bani?? :p

To JOESHERRY...Congrats my bestfriends!!!

2008-07-04T16:27:00.004+08:00

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These are from the scan thingy pics of joe n ina's baby.. she is in her 8th month now..perut die mak aihh..takut aku tgk..hehe..back 2 d pics..seriously..xfaham aku..even theres an arrow..still aku xnampak/paham gak..haha maybe next year when its my turn aku nampak/paham kot..wah gitew!! hehe anyways..pop out fast baby gurl..aunty yaya's waiting!!!

p/s: ina, pastikan its not on d 28th..!!**warning!**

wut am i like

2008-06-20T11:27:00.001+08:00

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Results

Your answers suggest you are a Provider

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

Summary of Providers

Warm, caring people who value order and tradition
Loyal workers who follow through on commitments
Think of themselves as sympathetic, easy-going and steady
They don't feel comfortable with radical change

More about Providers

Providers like to make plans with other people and then to work with them towards achievable goals in a fun, harmonious environment. They support people that are important to them and respect their individuality.

Provider is the most common personality type for women in the UK, according to a nationwide survey.

Providers have traditional values and support order and responsible behaviour. They enjoy social events, particularly family celebrations, and often help plan them. Providers work hard to avoid conflict, but they will state their beliefs when they think it is suitable.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Providers may doubt their abilities and focus solely on the needs of other people. Under extreme stress, Providers may withdraw completely and become excessively critical of themselves and others.

Providers prefer warm, face-to-face communication and often express their ideas by telling stories from their own lives.

Provider Careers

Providers are often drawn to jobs in education, health care or religion.

It's important to remember that no survey can predict personality type with 100 percent accuracy. Experts say that we should use personality type to better understand ourselves and others, but shouldn't feel restricted by our results.

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:)

2008-06-10T16:21:00.002+08:00

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Bulan dengarkan lantunku
bintang temanilah aku
terangi gelap malamku
aku ingin engkau tahu
ku kan selalu menunggu
hilangkan rasa letihku
Bila nanti kau mengerti
kumohon terangi aku
dalam hatiku, ingatkan aku
untuk menahan rasa hati lelahku
yang slalu ...

-kertas 08

I fell in love..with this song

2008-06-08T01:08:00.001+08:00

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Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan selalu memujamu

Di setiap langkahku ku kan
selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
tak kan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adlah hidup ku lengkapi diriku oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna

Kau genggam tanganku saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh kau bisikkan dan hapus semua sesalku

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidup ku lengkapi diriku oh sayang engkau begitu sempurna .. sempurna

Sayangku engkau begitu sempurna.. sempurna.. sempurna..

BBGS

2008-05-29T00:26:00.003+08:00

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i found this picture of me n classmates tym standard 5 from lensalily..dajah 5 pakai pinafore lagi tu babe..haha..muke sume xbleh blah kan..gonjeng gile..haha

The Rose

2008-05-18T02:03:00.001+08:00

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The Rose

by Better Midler

Some say love, it is a river
that drowns the tender reed...

Some say love, it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed...

Some say love, it is a hunger,
an endless aching need...

I say love, it is a flower,
and you it's only seed...

It's the heart afraid of breaking,
that never learns to dance...

It's the dream afraid of waking,
that never takes the chance...

It's the one who won't be taken,
who cannot seem to give...

and the soul afraid of dyin'
that never learns to live...

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been to long,
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong...

Just remember in the winter
far beneath the winter snows
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose...

me

2008-05-16T16:43:00.017+08:00

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late entry but since maseku dah diragut oleh my baby kazen..so here goes..

happy mother's day to mama, maksu!!

mama n maksu cutting d smallest cake in d world..but yummy non the less!

n sume mak-mak dalam duneya ini... we had a small dinner that nyt..tot of doing bbq but on d 27th nnt my dads bday n their anniversary, nak celebrate my sis mira off to college lagi..(yay!!! :p ) fathers day lagi..paksu's bday on d 3rd of next mth..so..bbq later nye plan...

adik min with all the calamine lotion glory

ive been very VERY busy attending to my baby cousin, jasmin..she has chicken pox and since aku je yg x keje..xskolah..so aku lah kene jage..1st day was ok..die tido je..malam cranky gile..hayo..second day better..lame2 makin ok..tp sbb die ni keje nak bercakap je..so..lotih mak melayannyeeeee...

2day i get a day off dr jage adik min so i went n renew my passport (mane tau nak gi jenjalan ke tetibe tahun ni kan..hehe) it was fast ok..satu jam jee..(dulu2 buat pun sejam gak..but thats another diff story altogether lah!)..weee x sabo nak gi jenjalan.. :)

umah aku kang dah kawen nnt..dtglah ye..jgn malu2

sejak aku jatuh chenta ngan laut 2 tahun dulu, cite-cite aku utk nak berumah di tengah2 bandaraya kuala lumpur (lebih baik in ampang x gerak2) dah berubah.. aku dah suke pulak nak duduk tepi laut..cliche..i noe..tp entahlah..even thinking about d ocean gives me d chills..d excitement..belum sampai lagi..so i guess its just natural 4 me to want to be near the ocean since i loved it so much ryt?so, since then, aku ade gak surf net n tgk travel channel kalau ade cite pasal umah yg ocean view nih..especially kalau mcm kat greece tuh..atas bukit..white or blue or pastel colored cottage..so cute n homely..with a view to kill..pagi2 bangun nampak air biru yg pristine..mau hari2 happy je cenggitu..tp bilelah kan..bilelah nak dpt ddk tepi laut...mcm cite spanglish tuh..malam2 leh turun blakang umah ddk depan laut..perghh nyaman seyh.. hopefully one day..insyaAllah..so..untill then..i guess i'll have to settle with rumah tepi sungai yang my parents dah beli...RUMAH DAH SIAP N WE R MOVING!!! YAY!!!! rumah saye santek :) x besar tp saye suke..hehe.. its fully done n d CF dah ade..kunci pun dah handover..just nak renovate sket n do a teeny weeny shopping ( coz umah kecik..brg2 skang sume x muat nye nak masuk kat umah baru..so yay!! furniture baru..hehe)...

entrance umah kecil tapi comel kami :) suke!suke!

nnt raye dtg ehk.. ;)

xoxo

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2008-05-13T12:28:00.001+08:00

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Don't let your mind get weary and confused
Your will be still, don't try
Don't let your heart get heavy child
Inside you there's a strength that lies

Don't let your soul get lonely child
It's only time, it will go by
Don't look for love in faces, places
It's in you, that's where you'll find kindness

Be here now, here now
Be here now, here now

Don't lose your faith in me
And I will try not to lose faith in you
Don't put your trust in walls
'Cause walls will only crush you when they fall

end n start

2008-04-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

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ketamatan telah kesampaian..hehe..

:'( :)

To my dear Om Pyan

2008-04-16T17:24:00.003+08:00

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Last Monday aku dapat news yang sgt shocking..my uncle passed away..he’s my abah’s bestfriend.. we called him Om Pyan..rapat sgt..dah rase die tuh mcm adik beradik my dad je.. I was sleeping when my friend, Yang called me up..(Yang’s dad, Om Yunus is also one of their gang from Uni days) I did not pick up coz cam penat..tp xsampai 1 min, my abah called..

“ awak buat ape? Haa..bangun siap..suruh mira n adi siap..datang shah alam.. Om meninggal”

I was so in shocked that I froze 4 a while before kejut my sis..still ayat2 my dad mcm mimpi lagi.i pun pk la..Om mane..Om ni uncle in indonesian language..my father n his gang belajar sane..so bila dh beranak pinak anak2 sume panggey them Om..i pklaa..Om mane.coz 2 me kalau abah sebut Om je..means om pyan..coz die paling rapat ngan ktrg..if Om lain..mesti die dh sebut full..tp x percaye lah kalau Om Pyan..so I turun 2 kejut my bro..we all siap but everybody was dead quiet…. Siap2 je..semua terus gerak gi shah alam..

My parents was already there coz Om’s son, Boboy called my father around 6.45am to tell that his dad was unconscious at the hospital..so both my parents rushed out pepagi bute tuh..sampai2 around 7.. d doctor tgh try 2 save him..mase tuh tgh buat yg electric shock thingy tuh..but menurut d nurse..mase sampai2 tuh dlm 6.30 tuh dh meninggal ekceli..die meninggal of heart attack..die jantung mmg dah lemah..n die patut buat bypass but he was 2 scared..kesian jugak…

Yang sedih nye..wife die, aunty shima kate around 6am slalu die akan batuk..tp pagi tuh.die x batuk..just sesak nafas tp mcm org nazak..so die gelabah..but tetibe die teringat nak buat CPR (she’s n x stewardess..so nasib die tau nak buat cemane) lepas CPR, Om relax balik..pulse pun ade..they waited 4 d bloody ambulance..xsampai2..boleh? (sampai sudah ambulance x sampai ok!!) so his son, Boboy, d maid n guard rumah sebelah tolong angkat Om masuk kereta n bawak gi spital..but sadly it was 2 late..

Ekceli 3 months ago he was in an accident..kat north south hi-way..teruk jugak..d pajero he is in tergolek berputar berkali2 n die tercampak n tergoleh dr sebelah hi-way seberang from arah die..tp miraculously he survived with only scratches je.nothing else..Tuhan punye keje..maybe He is giving Om more tym kan? Who noes..

Last week baru die dtg rumah..gurau2 ngan die..he told me he was starting a catering service n wants 2 be d caterer 4 my wedding.. I laugh it off n told him I will say yes if its free..little dat I noe dat would be my last conversation with him..

Ive known him all my life..very generous dalam membelanja makan..ehehe..kuat isap rokok..kuat sgt2..ashtray kat umah ktrg tu akan keluar dr shelf bile die dtg..looks like ashtray tuh akan berabuk lah 4 a very long tym..

He was a police officer..once die penah jd ketua polis traffic Negara for a while.. and his last post was ketua polis kedah..he was very direct in giving commands but he meant well..he was a gud person..always helping people when ever n where ever..im not saying this to his favor but I also heard it when people cakap2 mase tahlil about him..die bergurau kasar.. I remember wen I was small..i couldn’t understand his way of bergurau..he woulnd call my dad on the hse phone..if I angkat..he’ll go “ eh heska..mane abah kamu, ? “ “ ade..jap..die tgh dtg kat fon” “ alah..cepatlah..mangkuk betullah die tuh” hehe dats his fave word..mangkuk..i was so mad at him 4 calling my dad a mangkuk..later I learn dat he calls everybody dat….now I’ll noe I’ll be missing d word ‘mangkuk’..hehe..

If pegi rumah die kat shah alam tuh.. pintu depan rumah die always terbukak..but tempat die lepak will be at d very back of the house..then die akan jerit..”masuk lah ismet”.. or “kang is..” coz my dad’s name is ismail..so ismet tuh dr pramlee filem kot..kang is plak..sbb derang study kat indon..so..masih melekat lah mende2 tuh..die akan ddk kat belakang ngan x berbaju..ngan kain pelekat..isap rokok sempoerna die..( his neighbuor is Dato azalina..mase she came 2 pay her last respect..die gurau la..xdela nampak Datuk ddk berlenggeng just kain pelekat je ehk lagi.._cehh..ngintai!! :p)

Last few mths, die slalu je nak ajak my dad gi indon “ jom mael, kite gi tgk tempat2 kite lame2 dulu2” so they went..sebulan sekali mesti gi indon.. maybe it was kindda like a down memory lane thingy 4 him kot….but all the trips caused him..he was always penat..he told my dad that..so they stop berjalan..but he still comes over.melepak kat rumah kami.but shah alam n ampang xde la jauh pun…

He’s habit was to call people..he’ll call his wife n his 2 sons atleast 10-12 times a day just 2 ask them wer they r..dah makan blom..buat ape.. then maybe 5 times..tepon my dad..ntah hape2 derang borak kan..dh habis borak..sms plak lagi..kalau bace dlm fon my dad..name supian tuh..berderet2..funny je..

I can just only imagine how my dad feels loosing his bestfriend…mase arwah baru sudah dimandikan, family n close friends gathered dlm bilik die..to pay our last respect..tym my dad.. tibe2 darah starts mengalir dr mulut arwah..which was ironic n so sad..i can see my dad’s love 4 him mase die lap kan darah tuh..but die x cium pun arwah..he looked as though it was d hardest thing 4 him to do..which is obviously so…after d body dah bawak depan..n seconds b4 nak tutup..baru abah pergi n kissed arwah..it was so heart wrenching for me as a daughter to see my dad in d situation he is in but i cant do anything…

Till today, its still surreal to me..d next day..we were having lunch n my dad’s phone started ringing.. semua org mcm terkedu..coz d only person selalu akan call is Om.. and it was a joke we use 2 make kalau my dad nye phone bunyi..”haa besfren call”..and selalunye its 95% betul..but now..dat day..it was obviously not his bestfriend..

Yesterday night..mase tgh tunggu tahlil..i lepak kat Arwahs place..his youngest son, Aiman was sitting infront of me.. next 2 d house fon..i tgk je ape die buat..
He was punching d numbers on d hse fon…rupenye die tekan nombor handfon bapak die..my god..sedih gile tyme tuh..nak pujuk pun..kang nangis..so I let him have his tym alone..form 4 baru n die dah kena duga mcm ni..tryng to put myself n his shoe tp x boleh..just nak try 2 think of it pun unbearable..

Tapi..mase Om dah sampai..mcm mane x masuk akal pun..kite terpaksa terima jugak n sebagai org Islam..kite hanye boleh doakan kesejahteraan dan sedekahkan Al-fatihah dan yassin.. So, mohon jasa baik semua menyampaikan sedekah untuk Mohamed Supian Bin Amat/ Dara…

In Loving Memories
Mohamed Supian bin Amat
4th September 1949 – 14th April 2008

Al-Fatihah

p/s: die dulu skolah KGV..same lah ngan u Wan!! :p

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2008-04-09T10:59:00.000+08:00

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When life seems
Like there is no end
To the bad times

But there is ..
There may come hope
There may come courage
There may come Faith
There may come comfort
There may come support

Many people think
That there may never be
An end to the bad times

Even though life seems
Meaningless there is
Always a solution to it
It may not be when you expect it
Sooner or later things
Will work out for the best

earth hour

2008-03-29T19:59:00.000+08:00

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only 1 hour off no electricity people..8-9pm 2day!! save mother earth..lagi satu minit 4 me...byee!!!

signs

2008-03-22T08:58:00.003+08:00

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so kawan-kawan..janggut? abg bani? hehehe..who's on ur mind? ;p

happy weekends!!

in d zone

2008-03-20T23:30:00.004+08:00

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Ku pernah punya cinta namun kini ku sedang suka kamu
Cintaku dulu tlah kubuang jauh kini ku ingin kamu
Jangan bilang tidak bila kita belum mencoba
Siapa yang tahu akan sama hatimu dan juga hatiku
Lamanya bercinta bertahun tahun putus juga
Kuharapkan dengan dirimu walaupun singkat pendekatan Cinta kita kan abadi
Jangan bilang tidak waktu dicium aku bingung
Namun dada ini bergetar pipipun semu
Namun aku mohon jangan bilang tidak

Tell me how im supposed to breathe with no air

Can't live can't breathe with no air

thats how i feel whenever you ain't there

Its No Air

Got me out here in the water so deep

Tell me how you gon be without me

if you ain't here i just can't breathe

I Walked

I Ran

I Jumped

I FlewRight off the ground

To float to you

Theres no gravity

To hold me down

For real

Al-Fatihah

2008-03-19T12:06:00.002+08:00

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His atok just passed away after battling wif pneumonia..
May he rest in peace...Amin

Meet The Parents

2008-03-16T20:38:00.004+08:00

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meeting d whole family for the first time is soo00o0o0o nerve wrecking..tp saye berjaya!! wooo hooo

p/s:hatiku berbunga riang..ahaks.. ( wan..dont puke :p )

<3

2008-03-12T17:50:00.000+08:00

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"..kuasa dan magis cinta,
yang memberikan pelangi di hari yang cerah dan bintang di malam yang dingin,
yang menerbitkan cahaya pada wajah,
yang mendatangkan rerama di dalam dada tetapi selesa di dalam jiwa,
yang membuat hati terasa tidak tertampung akan kelambakan cinta itu,
yang memberi kekuatan dalam menghadapi hari,
yang memberi keindahan luar biasa pada perkara biasa,
seolah-olah semua lagu cinta bercerita tentangnya.."

'Bila cinta, menggugah rasa..'

** stumble upon this mase tgh blog hopping..so sweet

Al-Fatihah

2008-03-03T09:29:00.005+08:00

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u have been suffering for 15 years..somewut im glad ur letting go..moga awak happy kat sana.. we will always miss u abg.nazeem :)

Mohd Anazeem Alaudeen
1973-2008

gr8 gr8 nyt

2008-03-03T00:11:00.002+08:00

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After two hours standing in a Siti Nurhaliza show.. mandi hujan n pekena nasi lemak and sup daging-perut-urat yg panas asap berkepul-kepul (bak abg ipar canter isap pipe ;) ) at dorai..my night cant get any better.. :) tqs & gud night love!

*my cheek hurts*

xoxo

tagged by mr. cupcake snowcap

2008-03-01T21:43:00.004+08:00

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Here are the rules:

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog

1: i'm claustrophobic.
2: i feel suffocated bile cuci rambut..kan kite cuci rambut, tutup mate..xnak bg shampoo masuk mate kan? haa..tym tuh lah aku rase lemas..rase nak bukak mate cepat2.dunno y..
3: i love the color black..not only i need it to make me look 2 size smaller..but i feel gud in black..who sez pakai vibrant colors makes u feel gud..pakai black x..pandai pandaaiiii jeee..
4: i dont noe how to be a hipocrite..if i hate u..u'll noe
5: i love islands!! just d thought of it makes my heart 'skips a beats' :)
6: i like kicap.DOT
7: i sleep wif my cat..it bothers d hell out my frens yg dtg sleep over..haha 2 bad! :p

The seven people I'm tagging are:
ikin ;)
ikram
nurul
shiqin
sarah
mary baby
u!

HNY :)

2008-01-16T11:42:00.000+08:00

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Im no expert in relationships and I don’t think I’ll ever be an expert in it... Relationship, be it with family, friends, lovers, colleagues, anner jual roti, who ever... will sometimes, often that not will meet up with bumps once in a while.. why does this happen? To destroy wutever we have between each other or to strengthen it? Usually, in d end we’ll noe y..but..kenape slalu in d end? After all damage has been done.. untuk kita belajar from it? So we remorse? Sometimes kita tau result die..(yg selalunye buruk) but y do we get on with it still? Maybe mcm Grey (Meredith) questioned ..

‘Why do we keep hitting ourselves with a hammer.. maybe becoz once we stop, it feels damn good.. ‘

but does all relationship has to be that way? U have to go tru all the rain n storm to get to the end of d rainbow? Well maybe betul kate org.. (siape ye org neh?!) pengalaman mendewasakan.. it moulds u, better urself… but as human beings.. y do we have to learn it the hard way?..is it becoz pain is pleasure? Y it always has to be a painful experience before u get hold of the situation n manages it? Y sometimes (nearly always) u noe dat particular person will end up failing u..like before… u still befriend him/her? Worst, love him/her more.. Giving them d second chance they don’t even deserve… maybe deep down u wish ppl will give u d second chance u really needed when the slacked is from ur part… but people are not forgiving.. they never are.. even if they say they so.. but I can bet u, deep down, there’s still anger or dendam..or wutever.. that’s y it is hard to have a sincere relationship, without any doubt, without anger, without annoyance..how do we change that? By accepting that person for who they are? Is that d only way?

Why is it, the oldest thing in the world..RELATIONSHIPS, has still no ISO in handling it…it is suppose to be the easiest thing to deal with. Everybody deals with it.. It is always the same thing..all around d world..be it in Manhattan or the remote areas of Ethiopia. But it never fails to fail us in million ways.. So how? Maybe we just have to deal with it..

it took millions of years of compression to turn carbon into diamond..but we don’t have millions of years to turn something bad into something good..then mcm mane? Do we just have to shut up..stop whining about it? Stop feeling like everything fails us? Yup..maybe that..maybe after we start accepting things for wut they are..then we will have the time to sit back n see the good side of it..

Nobody’s perfect.. siape pun kau..perdana menteri..tukang kebun..anak raja..tukang dobi..copywriter, designer.. anner jual roti (kesian anner ni je kene) so we have to always remember that.. be kind.. stop bermuka-muka, then maybe we’ll live in harmony..mcm lagu linkin park…

’sometimes beginnings aren’t so simple’

so kite kene try to work it out before we can call it quits. But

‘sometimes goodbye is the only way’..

so ppl..it’s ur call..work it out or say the magic word, gud bye…

It is always great to kiss n make up.. but sometimes we do have to kiss n let go… letting go is the hardest part if kita tak belajar utk memaafkan..so they say..then maybe kite kene belajar utk memaafkan..sincerely..

So, another year, another list of azam… lets try to atleast fulfill a few of it this time ey? Happy new year!

Kiss kiss

"Tailor Made"

2008-01-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

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to me...

Twenty-five,
All of these mixed emotions,
Tangled up in pure confusion,
It’s hard to let go of the past,
but it seems,
Easier as time is moving,
Well you said he makes you laugh,
And he makes you happy,
He sees you smiling back,
It is everlasting,
And so he’s tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues,
And one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it’s just a start,
And I,
have seen you everyday,
You’ve never been like this before,
He’s tailor made, tailor, tailor made,
So let go all of these mixed emotions,
Forget all your hesitations,
Together entwined inside this feeling,
Feet off the ground, head hits ceiling,
Then he whispered in your ear,
He’s absolutely falling,
The words he said are clear,
So don’t insist on stalling
He’s tailor made for you

nutting much

2007-12-28T09:47:00.000+08:00

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never had a real chance to sit infrnt of d pc n menekan nekan papan kekunci telling my story..tak byk yang berlaku..just i had my bday..suku abad..s had to ade a burfday party..some came (tqs) some didnt (doesnt matter) really2 happy..i had family, friends n my 'plus one' there...kazen sara (gr8 help..tqs dear!!) wrote about the bday weekend in her blog..pegi lah bace disini..

pics xde!! nak dijadik kan cerita..my dslr memory card was wif my dear mr kalos..n die lupe bawak...n my dg cam was wif my fren..so..hurmm there goes..xpela..the memory remains.. :)

the folowing weekend we went to klang fr max's majlis akad nikah wif his nana..kacaklah kawan saye itew..serba putih...the ceremny was really simple mase kat surau itu.skali lafaz( so proud babe!) xde pun tanye sah? sah? trus..bace doa selamat..Alhamdulillah..the whole gang was there xcept fr joe n ina..still kat JB cz joe has to work..xpela..hope semua boleh kumpul at max's reception..cz the gang DAH LENGKAP!! :p hikhik..

the next day my pretty kazens from singapore came wif their relatives n 'frens' lepak at The Zon..13 rg seyh..mane nak sumbat dirumah saye itew..pandai budak2 ni naik lrt..aku pun terkedu-kedu nak ajar..hehe..dlm byk2 tempat..they all wanna go petaling street..can??hehe the boys shop like gile..kesian girls yg penat..i hpe they had fun lah walaupun x puas berjalan..( come again but jgn ramai sgt so we can go jln2 naik krete..ochay? )

ape lagi?? lately byk tgk movie..alvin SGT CUTE..i am legend sux!! (for me lah..) nat treasure ochay ochay..malam td g midvalley tgk alien v pred cerita yg sgt gelap..literally..sakit mate aku..so x sabar nak tgk anak halal..game plan..oya..27 dresses!! cerita pasal this girl yg dh 27 kali jd bridesmaid (same plak nasib ktrg..tp aku 7 kali jela..) so maybe sbb tuh nak sgt tgk cite tuh kot..nk tgk ending die camne..nasib malang ke tak..hehe..

btw jumpa shosh, may, lennie, aidil, tasnim adzaman n nirma.. Ya rab sgt lame x jumpe bebudak tuh.. shosh kening baru!! one day kite lepak2 lagi ehk..maybe rindu dh kt sbb tuh aku tersasul yap kwan seng bila i was suppose to sebut chan sow lin ..hikhik..trust me..aku x penah lupe korg..

balik..tido umah sara kat kelana jaya..umah die sgt comel!!!nnt bile aku dh ade umah sendri..harus aku buat cenggini!! tomei tomei!!!

arini halfday..mate sakit..nak tumbuh ketumbit lagi.itu ari kanan..ni kiri plak..bagus betul die nak kasik balance..hehe..xsuke!xsuke.. hurmm hari dh kul 10..nasibla masuk keje kul 2.30 nnt..so lambat la lagi pun.but nak tgk tv lah..ochay peeps..

xoxo

heart

2007-12-24T12:29:00.000+08:00

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Lihat awan di sana
Berarak mengikutiku
Pasti dia pun tau
Ingin aku lewati
Lembah hidup yang tak indah
Namun harus ku jalani

Berdua dengan mu
Pasti lebih baik
Aku yakin itu
Bila sendiri
Hati bagai lagit
Berselimut kabut

d more reason 2 lurve this song now i guess.. :)

one step forward

2007-12-23T00:13:00.000+08:00

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happiness is all around me :) Alhamdulillah.... who would have guessed.. hope it'll last..

h.e.l.p

2007-12-08T16:04:00.000+08:00

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how do u help d one u love, help himself?

crying inside sgt sakit :(

wuutttever

2007-12-05T16:05:00.000+08:00

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ngantuk..period pain...kejap lagi nak kene brief creative for ad..so not helping lah sakit puyut ini!!! missing s badly pulak..nape laaaa mesti call tym aku dh tido..haicctt..xde idea for this entry ni sebenarnye pun..

have a gr8 day peeps..

xoxo

janda baik

2007-11-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

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perlukah saye pergi flying fox di janda baik??

hurmmmmmmm......

<3

2007-11-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

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kfc never tasted soooOoOoOoO good <3

great nyt sleep people, i noe i will.. ;)

lifeline

2007-11-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

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esok

2007-11-18T16:50:00.001+08:00

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esok start practical..

neves siut!!

urghh!!

p/s: bile nak balik dr camping neh :(

Terbang Sayang by Cik Payung

2007-11-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

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Sekian lama aku mencari,

kini kutemu yang tak pasti ku kecapi

Kadang ku berlari,

tanpa destinasi dirimu,

tetap dihati

aku adalah aku,

takkan berubah bisakah kamu menerimanya

atau harusku berpijak dibumi,

yang nyata mengikat rasa

kamu bagai mimpi yang datang dan pergi,

bagai ilusi yang tak mungkin terjadi

tak mungkin ku gapai kerna setinggi awan,

patah luluh sayapku

dan ku tak bisa terbang sayang

GraduationDay

2007-11-15T23:37:00.000+08:00

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paparazzi snapshot courtesy of mr.ezuan

congratulations congratulations congratulations
congratulations congratulations congratulations
congratulations congratulations congratulations congratulations
congratulations congratulations congratulations

congratulations
congratulations!!

anda sungguh comel berbaju melayu :)

Dangerously in Love

2007-11-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

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"My soul is in danger," she said.
"When I'm with that man, I don't feel good."
"Just the opposite," answered the angel.
"And that disturbs thee, because thou canst come to love him."
(She) felt shame, for the angel knew her soul.
"Love is dangerous," she said.
"Very," replied the angel."And so?"

(Taken and edited from Miss intan's entry)

Love is dangerous..that's wuts gr8 about it..

the thrills of it..

The rush of blood tru ur face when he calls,

the feeling of jantung mahu pecah everytime u r face-to-face

especially when he gives u that "smile" that makes u go weak in the knees..

But when it involves real danger..does all of it worth the try?

Which one do i sacrifice..the love; so i'll have a life

(which is bad enuff without love, before him..)

do i sacrifice my life; be with the him, happy and content

but be in danger?

knowing that in the end..if anything happens..

it is only myself that i have to blame..

because i know better and still..

wut difference does it makes?

i'll still be put tru hell either way..

Man, this is going to be a really tough one..

shit!

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?

And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

perlu ke??xnaaaakkk.... :`(

2007-11-09T15:35:00.000+08:00

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bbq itu was ok..tp d company was oh-so-sweet..

tqs 4 inviting n waiting 4 me habis my class walaupun sgt lambat

and teman i mkn without u sibukkan ur friends.. :) ..

am i hitting myself with a hammer again?..hurm..sigh....

xoxo

sualan same laaaa

2007-11-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

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2 hari berderet..same Q:

".....bile nak datang shah alam?"

hikhik.. (ok..gediklah!)

P.Ramlee The Musical

2007-11-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

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Yesterday mira ( my sis) n I went to watch p.ramlee the musical.. it was fabulous… especially the props n the staging .. u wont believe it’s a work done by Malaysians (sorry) but seriously gempak siut!! I watched the matinee show so there’s no dato’ ct.. but my dad, having 2 watched the earlier show which dato siti ade.. he said she was so-so.. i wasn’t a bit surprised coz tgkla video clip die kalau kene belakon.. not good.. stiff.. its just good 4 her to stick to singing.. but anywhooo I still adore her!! :)

Back to p.ramlee.. the musical was about his journey towards stardom.. dr die kecil..so in love with azizah (dato’ ct) (hence the song n cerita penarik beca) but cinta terhalang bcoz azizah’s mother xsuke die..

he was a very very very hard working guy…discovered by d Indian guy mfp spore..offered him a job in spore which he went after consulting with his then girlfriend, love off his life, azizah…they broke up knowing there’s no chance between them…

In spore, he worked his ass off..admired by many especially pakcik darussi..or is it durassi..not sure..tp die ade 2 anak..junaidah n junainah..pakciktu nak sgt kawenkan junaidah ngan ramle..so he married junaidah when he was in interested with d sis junainah… but junaidah cant cope with his rising stars so die minta cerai..

then he married norizan..glamorous..stylish..a lil bit of a match made in heaven but again…he was so into his work..his passion, music, films, arrangements he was asked if wutever else would he sacrifice to maintain his level at that time…he was so busy with his work that norizan started to stray…he was heartbroken..die halau norizan out and again he was a duda…

they said third time’s a charm..he met saloma who was already so madly deeply in love with him…they were in d same line..they understood each other..she was meant for him..she kept by his side tru the ups and downs…she was his tulang rusuk kiri..remy and sally…

and alls well that ends well I guess.. :) tp between each lifestory die abadikan with songs yg kite biasa dgr..i cant recall d title but after the musical I felt dat I knew him..i felt his pain tru his songs…I felt his joy tru it..even for a huge star..he has great downfall which was sad to know..it was sad to know that he, p ramlee yg produce cite2 lawak yg sampai sekarang kalau tgk pun gelak nak mampos..went tru a rough time too..just like us normal people..but with greater impact becoz he’s a public figure…

he was really dedicated to producing great films, great songs.. by the end of the show I was genuinely proud of him..

to Uncle Ramlee..(wah uncle!) KUDOS! :)

Basikal tua

2007-11-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

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kalau pelan-pelan kayuh pun sampai kan.... kan? hurm....

aku xnak jadik azizah..aku nak jadik saloma...

1 hour with my S

2007-11-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

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I've been awake for a while now

You've got me feelin' like a child now

Cause every time I see your bubbly face

I get the tingles in a silly place

And it starts in my toes

And I crinkle my nose

Wherever it goes

I always know

That you make me smile

Please stay for a while now

Just take your time

Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane

But we are hiding in a safer place

Under covers staying safe and warm

You give me feelings that I adore

p/s: u...hurmm *smits*

well put

2007-10-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

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"........don't decide on the undecided"

nizamuddin hamid

november 29th, 07'

late afternoon

P.Ramlee..

2007-10-28T18:59:00.001+08:00

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"I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you"

sigh! a mistake or plain ignorance? bloody hell...

10 years Anniversary

2007-10-26T16:02:00.000+08:00

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"to see a world in a grain of sand,

and heaven in a wild flower

hold infinity in a palm of your hand

an eternity in an hour"

~william blake~

Today is paksu n maksu’s 10th year wedding anniversary!! Yay!! Congrats 2 both..paksu call me up 3 days ago asking me to tolong him yg uber bz to go n hunt 4 dat nine west shoe maksu was eyeing like hell ..( open toed flatties rm460 mind u!! gila!) siap jumpe sorok2 kat luar umah tgh2 malam nak plan hehe..

plan dia was once die dapat kasut..he will leave one lying..lieing? wuteverla kan..satu kasut diletak merata2 sahaja di dalam rumah..konon2 mcm Cinderella tuh..n lagi satu minggu die nak kasi sume try sampai jumpe org yg muat dat size la..which is maksu la ..duuhh..

comel kan??if korg jumpe paksu aku tu…korg x sangke la die tu nak buat benda cute2 mcm ni..buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutttt…yg kelakarnye..mlm bile I nak g deliver kasut tuh…which is semlm..semlm jugak die g Habib Jewel..beli cincin…yg sengalnye..die lupe die dh bg cincin last year!!! Boleh???sabo jela..so konon2 nye dh bg habib..kasut tuh die xnak buat la surprise…so end up..x buatla…CEEEEHHHHHHHHH!!

hehe tp niat tuh penting..after 10 years pun kalau gaduh..still kuar ayat mcm “ okla u menang..u menang!!” aku gelak gile semlm…but comel kan??i mean I noe paksu I one heck of a sweet, cute guy deep down inside of dat rezal duduk body :p tp kalau die still nak buat menda2 mcm org bercinta 2-3 tahun lagaknye..man..ur in for a real treatla maksu!! Hehe.. tgk muke maksu yg terkedu semlm pun boleh tau she is sooooOooOoO terharu..muke nak nangis..hehe..so cute!!

So guys..i wish all d bestEST!!! In everything.. millionaire couple in d making! J love u guys a whole lot.. my best whishes n prayers will always be with u n ur family…

p/s: maksu..how are u going 2 top dat up?? :p doakan heska dapat sumone like him ya??hehe..congrats again!!
to my future hubby S ( yg x membace blog2 ni.. u better top THAT up!! :p)
xoxo

Bushaann

2007-10-21T12:44:00.000+08:00

*Have you ever been attracted to someone older than you? If So, Who?:
Shawn

*What was the last thing you ate?:
Sate, Pasta, Laksa Johor (raye beb!!)

*Do you believe in love at first sight?:
Anything 2 do wif love, yes I believe..termasukla all d heartaches segala mala..

*Are you wearing socks right now?:
Nope..

*What color is the shirt you're wearing now?:
blue

*Who was the last person you danced with?:
Hurm..Bie kot…

*Do you dance in your kitchen?:
Yes!!haha

*When was the last time you ate a cupcake?:
cupcake! OMG i dont remember when! :(

*Who's birthday party did you last attend?:
Aqilah baby odkoz malam td..

*Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?:
2day x ah…

*Ever embarass yourself in front of a crush?:
Like duuhh..haha

*Do you tan in the nude?:
I dont tan. so hah

*Wanna go splunking (cave diving)?:
Cave diving? insyaAllah x lame lagi ;p

*If you were president, what's the first law you would pass?:
Uhh lemme see... I’ll pass the..mmm..

*Do you think humans will ever live on other planets?:
No. LOL

This or That

*Sub or Burger?:
SUBs! Tp susah la nak dpt..jauh

*Dogs or Cats?:
Cats

*With or without frosting?:
with

*Wheel of Fortune or Price is Right?:
W.O.F

*Champange or Wine?:
Neither !!

*Liquer or Beer?:
Neither !!

*Angelina Jolie or Jennifer Aniston?:
Jen of coz..hate anything 2 do wif mr. n mrs smith..liar!!!

*Aerosmith or The Rolling Stones?:
Aerosmith

*Lays or Pringles?:
neither

*Dunk'n Donuts or Krispy Kreme?:
The big Apple!!!

*Older or younger Significant Other?:
Older plz.. :D

*Snapple or Propel?:
Snapple

*Google or Yahoo?:
Both

*Superman or Batman?:
Ofcoz superman.. duuh!!

The One Favorite...

*Sex Position:
Will let u noe in a year..( or 2) :p

*Girl Name:
Dyana, sofia

*Boy Name:
Anthing that starts wif A

*Milkshake Flavor:
Choc and strawberry

*Ice Cream Dessert:
Raspberry, strawberry, blueberry, choc

*Song To Dance To:
Mary j blige’s

*Cookie:
Famos Amos!

*Musician/Band:
Indon’s, aerosmith, bon jovi, nickleback

*Room In House:
Mine! :)

*Soup:
Creamy

*Sport:
Water!!

*Holiday:
Island, Italy, Greece

*Snack:
Chocs

*Friend:
All of them :)

What Do You Think Of When You Hear...

*Vegetable:
Green

*Hip-Hop:
Kami rappers Yo!

*Funny:
I SOOOOOOoooOoOoOo love!

*Pig:
fat

*Country:
Italy

*Sex:
Shosh

*Ring:
Kawen!!

*Scissors:
Edward scissorhand (huh!!boleh??)

*String:
Guitar

*Camel:
Lalat penuh satu muke

*Island:
HEAVEN!!

*Soda:
Coke

*Peace:
Water

I tag U!! :)

my p.ramlee....

2007-10-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

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Hati bertutur sejujurnya

Aku memilih cintamu

Walau badai akan menghadang kita

Ku tak peduli walau sulit untukku

Cintailah aku

Ku damai disisimu

Peluk aku, dekap aku

Jangan pernah ada rasa, tak percaya

Rindu aku, ingin aku

Selamanya engkau ada

Disampingku oh

Selamanya t'lah kuberikan semua

Tapi mengapa kau tak pernah percaya

Dua sisi dunia memang berbeda

Tapi bukan untuk dipisahkan

Cintailah aku, milikilah diriku

Selamanya

p/s: i don't care if there's no toilet!! :p

2007-10-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

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"l o v e is the closest thing we have to magic"

do i feel a little magic coming?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri,

Mohon Maaf Zahir dan Batin everybody!!! :)

IQ Test

2007-10-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

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The Classic IQ Test

My Result: Inspired Inventor

You have an unusually strong balance between verbal and mathematical skills combined with a strength in the visual realm. Your most enduring talent, however, is that your idea center never shuts down. That's what makes you an Inspired Inventor.

You come up with insights that surprise even yourself, and that's because you might not always be aware when your brain is working on the next great idea. Most of the time, Inspired Inventors such as yourself have a plan brewing in their heads — even if they don't know it at the time. You are particularly adept at brainstorming, and coming up with multiple solutions for any problem because your brain never switches into the "off" position. You're like Sir Isaac Newton in this way — even commonplace events like an apple falling from a tree can be worked into the ever-present concepts that are formulating in your mind. This is the reason people flock to you for fresh ideas, advice, and insight. Your keen ability to process new information, makes you an indispensable team thinker. If, for example, you and your friends were stranded on a desert island, you would be able to figure out how to live in an unfamiliar landscape. Despite the newness of the situation, you would be in your element, generating ideas and potential solutions.

You have a unique way of solving problems. So trust yourself, and take every chance you can to share your insightful ideas with others.

Take this test >

dia itu rezeki?

2007-10-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

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rezeki itu tidak datang bergolek.. tetapi bile "dia datang bergolek"...

grab it!! :)

l.o.v.e

2007-09-29T15:48:00.000+08:00

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" Love can sometimes be magic.

But magic can sometimes just be an illusion. I should have been more careful. I was blinded by your halo, I never noticed the horns."

Babe, whenever u call :)

2007-09-27T02:35:00.000+08:00

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I won't ever be too faraway to feel you

And I won't hesitate at all

Whenever you call

And I'll always remember

The part of you so tender

I'll be the one to catch your fall

Whenever you call

And I will breathe for you each day

Comfort you through all the pain

Gently kiss your fears away

You can turn to me and cry

Always understand that I

Give you all I am inside

*sigh*

Slowly fading away from d picture

2007-09-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

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"Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong,

The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid,

The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.

Don't you think it's strange?"

Seriously? Yes.. Probably sick of having too much of it? Or is it the age? Well maybe it's only d hunger pangs..Who know's wut anymore.. I know dat I don't know anything anymore these days.. Wutever.. Sick of it? Not sure.. Hell!! Maybe a little.. Either way I loose.. Wut's there 2 maintain? Maybe it's best to just stop trying. No point. Let's just see how things go then..

Yup... Let's try doing that...

Ikut kata hati mati?

2007-09-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

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Disaat cinta tercipta

Semestinya ku merasa

Dikala hasrat mendalam

Semestinya ku berbalas?

Dari hati kini kusadari

Tak semestinya kuberkasih

Jika hati tak dapat berbagi

Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam hati

Aku Mau

2007-09-13T13:03:00.000+08:00

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*cute song!!

Aku Mau - Once

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku

Dan anggap ku tak ada

Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku

Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat

Semua kan terjadi

Kau kan mencintaiku

Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu

Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu

Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu

Apapun terjadi

Kujanjikan aku ada

1st day

2007-09-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

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:: Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Pertama ::

Diampuni dosa orang-orang yang beriman sebagaimana keadaannya baru dilahirkan.

muthercracker!!

2007-09-12T18:21:00.000+08:00

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i just dont understand how ppl can afford to get into an accident when the road is jam..accident yg kaw-kaw punye kemik..gile ke??bukannye tgh bwk laju..paling laju boleh pegi 40km/ph..boleh accident gak tu..BANGANG!BEGA!

yg hanginnye..dahlah jam..PANAS sepanas panasnyela malaysia ni..mase tu gakla die nak accident..MAKINLAAAA jam..ppl waiting on the road tu dh ade yg cair dan hangus..indicator suhu kat billboard tu pun dh kuar

"hari sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat SANGAT SANGAT SANGAT panas"

yg kuang asamnye..yg involved in d accident sume happy-happy jumpin' jelly beans ddk bawah jambatan..sejuk..covered frm the blasting hot sizzling sun rays..

kite yg x menyebabkan masalah ni la yg menanggung akibat..eeii nak je aku jerit kat makhluk2 bodoh yg accident tuh tadi..tp aku sabar je..esok puase kan..

hurm...camnela nak lalu sebulan puase kalau hari-hari kene berdepan ngan manusia2 laha kambeng mcm ni..eee..panas betullah!serious pasni aku g beli helikopter..tgkla!!pastu aku tembak sume kete2 yg bleh accident tym jam ni..

kepada yg terlibat dlm jam kat federal tadi kul 2.30..anda sangat bodoh!

kepada kaum muslimin dan muslimat yg x bodoh sekalian, selamat menunaikan ibadah berpuasa ya?? jgn ponteng2..aku nampak dr helikopter aku, aku tembak korg skali!!..

wei..sebulan lagi raye!!yahoooooo!!

xoxoxo

Tapi....

2007-09-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

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after 7 years... tapi saye tidak menidakkan jika ade jodoh yang mendatang!! :D

mungkin sayang tu leh tukar jd chenta hati ke..kan??*wink*

(too much tomato pasta!!)

d queen of smitten kitten is back people!!! (yawn..wuts new!!)

xoxo

Matters of the Heart

2007-09-11T16:18:00.000+08:00

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Matters of d heart itu satu topic yg sgt best utk dibincangkan oleh manusia2 yg sedang MB atau terkekimputan..tapi it is a booooooring topic 4 those yg dh x kuase nak dgr..bitter n just plain ignorant...
Where do i stand? no where in that list...sumtimes aku suke..sumtimes i dnt..but lately, i think i've figured out sumthing..that MAYBE im done being bitter..that MAYBE im ready to be in love again..y? basically becoz i miss being missed..(ni sume pasal greys anatomy la neh!!)
But seriously..i really do want to open my heart for sumone..( tall, debab, cute, FUNNY, cuddly, has a smile dat is contagious - do u fit d bill??) and i noe d list is too much..n im not perfect myself..but hey..a girl has d right 2 dream of her perfect man ryt?
But..opening up is not easy after u've gone tru HELL..being ripped and left cold to die (wah xegerate!)(hey story aku.ske akula kan?hehe)..
Seriously..after u've been tru hell, even wen d thing u wanted most is be in love n being loved..u will tend to run away from it..y? becoz d pain is unbearable..emotionally, physically, mentally..fuck..who want's 2 go tru all of it again just 4 d sake of love..only stupid ppl..(sorry!)
Last 2 days i had a conversation with my long time crush (of 7 years) about me liking him n all..but after d confession, i realize that im not in LOVE with him..i dnt wanna marry him ( like Tunku wants to .....erkkk...dot)..i dnt have faith in him.. i tot i did.. but i dont..
Y? im not sure..am i dat damaged? i dnt wanna be...i wanna kimput like maytots is now wif her mr debab creme brule rugger..i wanna hold hands and take cute cuddly pix like em's doing..i wanna love sumone with all my heart like tunku is n i pressume, always will..i dnt wanna be a cold heartless biotch..nnt i'll end up like hazina..hahaha..nnt aku buli employee aku.."ur having too much fun sha'ila"..i dnt wanna be her..
but i also dont wanna have a relationship where the'll be sex befor mariage, i dnt wanna fall in love wif sumones hubby, i dnt wanna be sumones scandal, sumones "ringan2" sumones kekasih gelap..
I wanna be sumones ONLY everything.. a mother to his 7 kids, the light of his life, the place where he is safe being vulnerable.. i wanna learn to cook his fave food even it means fettuchini escargo petai masak kicap..i wanna be hugged n kissed without having d feeling of does he really love me or not..
im done wif fickle minded man, rebound guys and liking bad boys..
i want a decent guy which i can live my whole life being in his arms n there's not even a care in the world after that...only d pure feeling of my love for him..
To my friends, toxics, it is not that im bitter anymore..im just scared..i dont feel that there's anyone that can be with me n will be able to erase all my issues (trusts and everything).
Maybe i need therapy..

Tioman 2nd day

2007-09-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

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.. had breakfast at salang dreams.. tunggu boat 4 snorkelling.. pegi swim2, took millions of pics..nyanyi2 tgh laut.. buat YMCA tgh laut..balik..had lunch at salang dreams..pegi swim kat tgh laut n main lompat2 from d dock..swim balik ke shore dgn penuh ketakutan n marah bieyort sebab tetibe gelak dlm air tu..balik.. had dinner at salang dreams (AGAIN)..watch sumo..tido...

sekian..i noe u ppl love me..

tqs 2 saddiq 4 d genius idea

xoxo

Kekasih Gelapku- Tia's version

2007-09-11T15:06:00.000+08:00

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Ku menyayangimu lebih dari apapun

Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tau

Kumenyayangimu sedalam-dalam hatiku

Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

Ku tahu kau takkan selalu ada untukku

Disaat aku merindukan dirimu

Kutahu kau takkan bisa memberikanku

Waktu yang panjang dalam hidupmu

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah sayangku

Yang kucari selama ini dalam hidupku

Dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku

Yang panjang dalam hidupku

xoxoxo

after 7 years...

2007-09-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

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Atlast.. after 7 years,.. we both knew the real story (tqs to tunkutosh.. sapeee la lagi!). Alhamdulillah.. we r still gud friends.. for the years to come, hoping it'll be stronger than ever.. I can't switch on because i know dat i'm not capable of switching it off later if necessary.. But to clarify things... in my heart, there will always be a spot for you, forever ( u know who u are Babe.. :) )

p/s:

Quote-Unquote Joi-Tosh: Kalau jodoh takkan kemana..

Quote-Unquote Me: It doesnt matter.. We know where we stand in each others life.. It's special enuff.. :)

xoxoxo

SeLAMAT PAGI!!!!!!!!

2007-09-07T11:58:00.000+08:00

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today i woke up feeling very fresh, happy, bouncy..xtau kenapa.. supposed aku masih mandom..but hey..bagus la kan?? my gudmorning msges to all my kesayangan was also very cheerful sampai aku dh di label a smitten kitten oleh miss maytots melah.. hehe.. who knew rupe2nye..aku bakal dpt breakfast mcD dr an unknown source..die letak je atas kete aku wif a note

" 4 u miss kete wira"

well..gilelah..panas lagi plak tuh..xpenah ade org nak bg aku makanan pagi2 bute..tanpa pk panjang aku n kwn aku baham la makanan tu..dh free kan??

dh habis makan, br terfikir.."alamak..kalau org tu letak ape2 jampi..mati aku" tapi.. dh kenyang.. xkan nak muntah balik plak kan??

so.. anyways... kpd org itu (who ever u r).. terima kasih daun keladi ya.. pas ni.. sudi2 lah lagi :p

everybody, have a gr8 gr8 jolly molly menoly day kay??

xoxo

just a phase

2007-09-06T17:31:00.000+08:00

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it was just a phase...quarter life crisis? ow hell wutever!!!

liberated..burden lifted..

hurt? a little..will i do it again?

HELL NO!!

sekian, thanks for nuting..

xoxo

numb

2007-09-05T14:40:00.000+08:00

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it was a bad bad BAD choice n decision..

It's dooms day all over again..

hope it'll only be 4 a while..

(&^%#$*&%#%^##%) (mencarutlah kononnye tu! :p )

p/s: eye on malaysia itu sungguh menarik utk meringankan jiwa yg berat..too bad it is only 5 rounds..

(or was it 4??)

on a more lighter notE,

MISS TOTS,KETE BARUUU YEEEEEEE..

TAHNIAH!!!!!!

Tioman Sex Ed Trip.. Day 1

2007-09-05T09:55:00.000+08:00

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around 4am we arrived at Mersing R&R...All 8 of us.. kalos, may2, tosh, em, mori, alep, bieyort n urstruly..dalam sengal2 kengantukan tu..ade hati gak budak2 ni lapar so we head off to this mamak stall yg kononnye menurut kawan kalos..SGT JAUH...kwn die tu siput ke??kedai tu cam 10 minit je dr R&R...15 la kalau ko mengengsot..

so..we ordered stuff..makan2..tgk ellen kat astro kedai tu..berkenalan sket ngan Mori( bieyort's ex-boifren..mamat jepun yg x leh ckp melayu mahupun english..bleh?) kalos konon2 nak meng"apply" 3rd language yg 3 sem die amek tu..( tapi ADO!!)..rentikanla..heheh..

pastu dlm 6am plus..we head back to d jetty coz ade yg nak tido..sempatla yg lelap setengah jam..i settled d tixs utk bus balik pastu around 7 ish..pegi jetty tunggu boat..so nutting muchla..journey agak jauh..x sedar plak..last tym pegi em n i slept so x sedar sgt..

sampai2 check in bilik..n mandi2 pegi makan..after makan, hujan..so 1st day tu tido jela pun keje kitrg..dlm ptg2 sket br x ujan..gi amek2 gambar tepi pantai..still wasnt fun koz x jejak air lagi!! :(

malam tu we had dinner at salang dreams restaurant...our rm200 dinner yg x brape nak berbaloi sgtla sbb food mmg agak mahal sketla kat sane..but sedap..okla kan?bieyort n kalos jadi stokin bocoq..makan like no tomorrow..ngeri tgk derang makan seyh!!hehehe.

after dat lepak2 tepi beach..sesi bersumo wif kalos n shosh..nuttin much happened on d 1st day pun lah..jalan2 n makan2 je..will post a new entry 4 our 2nd day later ya!

have u ever?

2007-09-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

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Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?

or saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...

if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.

You can't tell your heart what to do.

It does it on its own....when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

* People live, but people die. And I want to tell you that you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow ,

you would be in my heart!!!

Would I be in yours?

cari pasal

2007-09-04T11:01:00.000+08:00

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Why do I keep hitting myself wif a hammer?

Maybe because once I stop, it'll feel good..

or will it??

hujan

2007-09-03T17:17:00.000+08:00

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MENGHAPUS JEJAKMU

by PETERPAN

Teruskan langkah melupakan mu

lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu

jalan pikiran mu buat ku ragu

tak mungkin ini tetap bartahan

Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu

kucoba untuk terus menjauh

perlahan hati ku terbelenggu

ku coba untuk lanjutkan kan hidup

engkau bukan lah segalaku

bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku

sesudah semua berlalu

biarkan hujan menghapus jejakmu

p/s: before things get dirty n complicated..baik gua blah!sorry tosh..tarik2 tali ni gua konfius

I LOVE YOU

2007-09-03T16:25:00.000+08:00

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amalina dato' nasir....

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

xoxo

kene skali!!

2007-09-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

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hey peeps!!just got back fr tioman like 20 mins!!god heaven siut!!tp later2 i'll put up a post..just wanna share sumthing dat a dear fren had told (or rather slaped it on my forehead)

"not all man will do good to you, but not all will do shit..."

hit me real good..dts y i love u tunkutosh!!tqs

xoxo

countdown people!!

2007-08-28T10:11:00.000+08:00

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TIOMAN !!!!!

here we come!!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

to everybody yg will not be at tioman,

selamat menyambut hari kemerdekaan di darat!!!! :p

pelita...

2007-08-27T23:34:00.000+08:00

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"hye..siapa nama..

boleh kenal atau pun tidak..

duduk kat mana, dengan siapa..

ada handphone apa nombornya..

boleh kah kita bersama.."

cikebum cikebum.haha :p

p/s: ces..lengkali senyum..jgn jadi ciken..senyum2 simpul!radar kasi naik sket!!tp kalau ngadap mamak sup utara..dont try this ok tots!!hahahah

aku sayang korang!!

2007-08-27T14:13:00.000+08:00

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sayangs..4 sum reason aku xleh nak reply kat comment box tuh..so here goes...

len..i dun like it coz my ex slalu kate..tapi it's all full of fucking shit.. :p..tp i would love to care n share wif T gals any time any wer..tqs..hehe..care bear my lil pony hugs!!(damn gedix dowh!)

tosh..i really appreciate it..really do..kite slau cite pasal topik ni..but 4 sum reason bile mcm betul2 bercerita pasal ni wif me being d target..aku kaget (kaget tu ape?) dats all..xleh nafas sket..maybe kene pegi ampang putri kul 7.30 pagi amek ubat yang alcohol free tu??

may..kalau aku ade cengkerik lennie dlm hati aku..aku bukak besar2 dh..runtuh kan dinding kot..haha bingit seyh!!eeek..eeek..eeek..ek.!haha (camtu ke bunyiknye cengkerik tu lennie? :p) nak bukak..KUNCI ILANG!!damn those nazis!

knock knock..anybody there? tunku??

2007-08-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

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tunkutosh said 2 me tadi at dinner dat i don't let people in (life, heart)..part of me wants 2 argue..but the other half dah tendang kaki d 'arguer' suh diam..

is it a bad thing 2 have ur life all 2 urself?? x kene share ngan sape2..u dun hv 2 answer to anybody (kecuali parents)..u dun hv 2 keep up wif all the fuckingbullshitness of gaduh2 sbb jeles la..nape x angkat phone..sape suare laki kat blakang tuh ..kenape u x pakai tudung..nape x pakai baju lengan pjg..nape x pakai stokin ...yada yada yada...fuck! larat ke? letih dude!

she said dat its kindda sad if katela tetibe satu hari, at 8.45pm, u need sumone 2 be wif u..sumone who is urs, but u dnt have dat particular sumone tu..ntahla..2 me..slagi u can't be happy alone..ade boifren ke..ade scandal beribu pun ke...u won't achieve dat pure happiness stage..sbb u depend kat org 2 be happy..xde org tu..u x happy..i think it's not healthy at all..tak ke?

i noe dat not wanting 2 love and let sumone in to ur life;heart is also not healthy, it's better than having d one u love, not loving u d same way, effecting u negatively..is even more unhealthy...

but either way..tunku, i still love u..always did..always wil..goes out 2 tots..lennie..kalos(walaupun u did not reply my msg kelmarin!) n lalatamploms...tqs 4 being an antobiotic!!gud nyt!!

xoxo..

it's me..partly?

2007-08-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

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1. A person is only as good as his/her words and doings to other

2. Friendship is always an antibiotic.. :p

3. To love is to risk heartache

4. Money makes me feel on top of the world

5. I miss being missed

6. My way of saying I care is thru my words n actions?

7. I try to spread love and happiness by FedEx??

8. Pick the flowers when u dun have the money to buy any for ur loved ones..its d tot dat counts..

9. To love someone is again to risk heartache

10. Beauty is VERY important

11. When I was thirteen, what I remember the most was my bloody boarding school n d stupid wardens

12. When I was twenty one, I remember making vows I didn’t think I would broke.

13. I am most happy when everything goes my way!!hahaha..selfish brat!!

14. Nothing makes me happier than love, money and losing weight!!hehe

15. If I can change one thing, I will change my size fr 16 to 12

16. If smiles were rain, I wanna be drenched in it

17. Wouldn't it be nice if we could just lay on the beach do nutting

18. If you want to become kurus then you have to not eat rice!!hahaha

19. Money is not everything is such bullshit

20. The most touching moments I have experienced was when my dad hugged me n told me it’s ok to be heart broken. sobsobsob

21. I smile when I feel like it

22. When I am happy I’m chirpy

23. If only I did not love then I did not have to suffer

24. The best thing I did yesterday was jumpa mr deep set eyes.. :p

25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title... “fuck u..it’s my life!”

26. One thing I must do before I die is to taubat

27. Doing this, I feel like wutever!

i tagged u :tots, tunku, nurul n sape2 la yg nak buat..

xoxo

l.o.l.o.l.o.l.o.v.e!!!!

2007-08-22T15:17:00.000+08:00

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soooo cute..tqs ms tots!!

Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. Sure. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment are running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually delete Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely deleted.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components". What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge Your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My Heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over my Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others, it takes a while, but eventually gets it at the proper time. So, Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and it's various components to everyone you meet. They will in turn, share it with others and return some cool components back to you

Customer: Thank you!

2007-08-21T17:51:00.000+08:00

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anonimo: u READ it..u actually took d tym to read it..so dat makes u wut??!!!u dont even have the guts ( or BALLS) to type in ur own name...SMF!get a life!screw u!

hola people!!

2007-08-01T08:52:00.000+08:00

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ahhhh...dapat pun masuk...(aku lupe password aku ekceli!!!) hahaha..hmm atlast..dpt gak membebel dlm ni..(so ashraf..shadap ek..dh ade entry baru neh!!)

im sooooooo bloody excited..am going to tioman again!!!..this tyme 7 org..so..xyah ar nak melayan org2 kat pulau..rase cam gatal pulak..hahaha..d last tym i went to tioman..i turn black..!!!as shosh puts it....im a zebra..n katenye bakal suami aku(ehem..ehem!!) akan berkate..Ya Allah aku kawen ngan zebra rupenye..hahaha...ko mmg hampeh tosh!!..nowadays..i felt better..i felt kindda gud..no more life sucking entries...maybe becoz i have come to terms dat wut u want doesnt mean dats wut u need(kate tosh) n life is easy if me make it dat way( kate bapak ku)....
oya..last 3 weeks my mom broke her leg..so she was hospitalized for a week...so now resting at home la..macam maharaja...duduk je..hehe..kesian gak..she partly immobalized..if aku..mesti restless...
so wut else ek ....class ade yg best..mcm copy writing..evaluate advertiements je keje...syokla untuk aku yg suke mengomen ni kan..oyyeee...last monday..i went to c haru biru..movie raja azmi tu...woo i tell u..cite tu mcm soft pron beb!!!(not dat aku pernah tgk porn..kecuali gay pornla..n itu sume salah shosh n maylin!!!!mak x bersalah noq!!mak x sengaja!!)aaaaaanyyyywaysssss....berbalik kpd cite td....mcm gampang i tell u...kalau cut..dah x de cite..paham x?cium2 slambe...sedut...bong sume..pergh..mcm tu ke remaja2 malaysia??aku kompius gak..maybe yekot....tp maybe dikalangan artis n upper class..ntahla..i have no comment on that...
2day bday my gud fren, iza...so dear..happy burfday ya??

just got this from an email from a friend..

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain."

hmmm...not reminiscing..just kalau sape2 yg bace ni..n rase sakit atau terase..cakap je kat diri korg..pegi mampos same itu perempuan/lelaki..ok?haha ni sume gara2 tgk cite haru biru..remember ayat shosh..wut u want doesnt mean u need... :) (may, shosh n yaya..paham?!!) hehe..

hmm..i guess itu jela 4 now..kang ade lagi aku nak membebel aku type later..(aku dh ingat password!!) hehe..

xoxo!!

p/s: tox. sor: im in like baru ok...so sabar...hehe(jgn kimput tia!!)

nutting much..NO!

2007-03-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

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current state : minor case of virul infection dat leads to stuffy nose n me being slightly deaf

jakarta trip: hell of an xperience..(jgn melancong bersama anak2 kecil n ketika kaki kurang sehat)..shopping was great..but didnt manage to get polo shirts 4 my bro n a gud fren of mine..maybe next time ek?bought tommy's pj pants 4 d parents, a guess n bebe top 4 d sis, n nautica shirt 4 my bro..as 4 moi, vic secret's vanila lace body spray, miu miu hobo bag, hair bands, lulur, phat baby's tshirt and yoga pants(not dat im doing yoga..sajeje sbb print die amat cute) planning on going again..this tym, nak spa sahaja..dgr cite murah gile...

2day: hari tunang max n nana..so we all went to klang..soul, last min xleh sbb kene siapkan keje kakak die..but akhirnye we all dpt gak berkumpul d whole gang malam tadi(kecuali tunang masing2 je x dpt dtg) 2 celebrate sharina's burfday, ina n joes 1st anniversary and maxs' enggagement day...mane lagi..cosy GE MalL...4 d 1st tyme d whole gang ade at 1 sitting..

d cake

d burfday gurl

1st year of many 2 comelatest enggagement bugs' victim

to sharina:

happy burfday, girl..d truth, ur d bestest fren anybody could ever wish 4. i love u with all my heart..ur d best!!!!

to max: skarang dh bertiun (or is it ber 'tune') ye..berlumba2 sekor2 bertunang ek..anyways..congrats dude!

more pics here

(cecair dlm koklea sgt unstable resulting to gibrish writings, so i guess i better stop then...)

gud nyt luvs!!

yo!

2007-03-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

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arghhh akhernye bleh log in..bungoksla blogspot neh..kang aku tukau ke multiply kang!!!banyak no nak tulis tp skang aku maleh..so later ekk..maybe after balik dr jakarta!! *wink* *wink*

daaaa

im back!!

2007-02-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

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hola!!!kumustas!!!! ya allah lamenye x membebel dalam ni...ekceli bila internet dah ok..dh boleh je onlne..tp bile try bukak blog nak buat entry, xbleh..banyaaakk kali try..xbleh gak..so..aku nak tulis dr burfday aku punye entry sampai skang..malas la plak..tp wut i can justify is dat start dr burfday aku sampai skarang...everything goes as plan..Alhamdulillah..surprisingly pleasant..ade a few bumps here n there..n bumps paling sentap was that sumone had moved on..surprisingly!!!! konon2 can't forget d past n wont be able to forget d past for a long-long tym..but heh!! now i know lah..a liar, an opportunist, ungrateful, omy...if i go on..it'll be forever..so i guess i'll just stop here..if sambung lagi..god noes wut kind of words i'll use..but hey..if ur reading this.. go to hell..ok? i wont forgive u. never will..NEVER WILL. n oh ya..I HATE U!! :)

great..thats out of my system ATLAST..so..wuts new wif me..december was full wif makan2 becoz my sedara mara ramai was born in december...kenduri doa selamat 4 my uncle n aunty yg g haji..(pics r all here)..january, i was accepted masuk degree in mascommunications majoring in advertising..good!!SGT BEST!!! classmates(cute ones!! :p ), lecturers, subjects..good..alhamdulillah semua sgt menyeronokkan..today, hari sgt bersejarah..my beloved friend kawen MR. RIDHUAN NAEMAT wif EMMY.....sgt terharu i cried..haha..wan was 1 of my closest friend..die ni mmg sgt nakal..u wont believe it..xreti serious, everything is a joke 2 him..asal boleh je die nak bahan...n wen 1 day he told me die dh kapel wif a gurl from our skewl..i tot well maybe it was nutting..alaaa wan..xmungkinlah serious..hmm x sangka..last ramadhan i got d news that he was engaged n december he gave me his kad..SURREAL beb!!kawen dah kawan aku...watching him on the pelamin looking d same but somewut different, i realise that he must have been doing some serious thinking before proceding wif all this, n for that i salute him..as for me..xtaula berani ke nak buat keputusan sebesar itu..n maybe dats y my tym has not arrive yet..(yes..keep on consoling myself..hehe)..

recap of last year..whirl wind..gud-bad...tought me that in d end, u can only fall back on urself n family..even how close u r to a person (which is not family) they will end up disappoint you (damn surprising but thats wut happened)..learned that the hard way..resulting in me being an ass but hey, if it makes only 1 party happy n dat party is not u..so y bother ryt?

being very attentive, supportive and caring usually are traits of a gud friend..but be selfish..make some deep serious thought on to whom u wanna be caring attentive n supportive to becoz in d end, even u r all that, they will still end up taking u 4 granted..

hope for this year..better then the last one hopefully...azam sgt banyak..n will try d best 2 penuhi d azam..hoping 2 be a better me with better life n better friends..insya Allah...

for u guys...
selamat tahun baru n make d best out of it ok? life's 2 short for all the whirlwind recaps..if it doesnt happens so wut..i learned my lesson n i hope u will to (wut ever it is for u lah)..so..have a great year ahead!!

xoxo

to marshy

2006-12-11T15:45:00.000+08:00

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this entry is for my dear friend

..mazlyndha..

it's never going to be OK but it'll be alright..u'll find days that u fell like letting go..

u feel that ur ok..embrace those days coz it'll be a miracle to have even 1 hour of painless-non-sadness moment..but when u find urself in days u feel in pain..of hollowness, of heartbreak..trust me..u r not alone..and like REM lyrics..just hang on..ok dear? im really sorry there are no shortcuts but d journey u're about to take will be an eye-epening if u let it be..ok?luvs.

After Great Pain, A Formal Feeling Comes
by Emily Dickinson.

After great pain, a formal feeling comes

The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Toombs

The stiff Heart questions was it He,

that bore,

And Yesterday, or Centuries before?
The Feet,

mechanical, go round

Of Ground, or Air, or Ought A Wooden way Regardless grown,

A Quartz contentment,

like a stone
This is the Hour of Lead Remembered,

if outlived,

As Freezing persons recollect the Snow

First, Chill - then Stupor - then the letting go

p/s :
conversation YM kite..

marsh yusuf: susah fall in love again
yaya heska: dun give up on luv la babe..

december babies!!

2006-12-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

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happe burfday tooo uuuuuuuu

happee burfdaaayy tooo uuuuuuuu

haappeee buurffffffdaaaaaaaaayyy toooo mira n marshy

haaaappeee buurrffffdaaayy ttoo youuuuuu!!!!!

and manyyyy moooooreee!!!

have a gud one ya dearies! :)

tq

2006-12-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

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terima kaseh

bukan diriku...

2006-12-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

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setelah kupahami ku bukan yang terbaik

yang ada dihatimu

tak dapat kusangsikan

ternyata dirinyalah yang mengerti kamu

bukanlah diriku

kini maafkanlah aku bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu

bukan santunku terbungkam

hanya hatiku berbatas tuk mengerti kamu

maafkanlah aku

walau kumasih mencintaimu

kuharus meninggalkanmu

kuharus melupakanmu

meski hatiku menyayangimu

nurani membutuhkanmu

kuharus merelakanmu

dan hanyalah dirimu

yang mampu memahamiku

yang dapat mengerti aku

ternyata dirinyalah yang sanggup menyanjungmu

yang lama menyentuhmu bukanlah diriku

abahku yg meraban

2006-12-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

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"abah, panaskan skang neh..

kaklong kuar kejap je dh sun burn..

sakit muke ni.."

"hmm awak same macam abah..

senang sun burn..

rasenye kite ni kulit mat saleh la..

kene migrate la ek cam ni.."

heh!!!!!!

always

2006-12-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

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cintaku sedalam samudera

setinggi langit di angkasa kepadamu

cintaku sebesar dunia

seluas jagad raya ini kepadamu
bagaimana caranya agar kau mengerti bahwa

aku mencintaimu, merinduimu selamanya

masihkah mungkin hatimu berkenan menerima hatiku untukmu

i look like who??

2006-12-04T15:01:00.000+08:00

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u know wut they say...jodoh panjang if muke tu nak dekat same.. :p

(blushing uncontrollably!! :p)